For awhile I’ve been feeling kinda numb. Not happy. Not sad. Just taking every day one day at a time. Those who know me would say—Give yourself a break. Your in the midst of all that goes with two weddings and a (grand) baby. But deep down I think it’s more than that.
A few days ago I wrote in my little notebook—What topic or message would interest me enough that I would go hear a speaker at an event, listen to a podcast or buy a book? I listed several of my felt needs at this time in my life. Most could be boiled down to affirmation and encouragement that I’m on the right track in my life and with God.
Then this morning I heard a pastor talk about personal revival—growing spiritually, growing closer to God, and knowing Him better. For me this would mean more peace, more of a sense of wellbeing, and solidity.
The thought occurred to me—I’ve been striving after the wrong thing! I’ve been wanting God to affirm me and encourage me in the work I do for Him and the direction of my life. But in order to have peace, a sense of wellbeing, and solidity, I need to strive after God. I need to focus on Him and Him alone—not Him and what He can do for me and my family. Yes, He can and is working in our lives, but in order to be fulfilled as the person God made me to be, my relationship with Him and knowing Him must be my Job One.
From this place of relationship with God I will have what I need for the rest of my life. My regular readers may be thinking—hey, haven’t you already wrote about this! What about your “Be the Tree” material? Yes, this is the same topic from a different angle. I don’t know about you, but for me to really understand a new concept I need to hear it several times and in different ways. I believe this is what God did for me today. He showed me in one more way how much He wants to be in relationship with me and how this relationship should be the center of my life—not what I do for God or what He does for me. My focus must change from my physical life to my spiritual life. Then I will have peace and direction for my physical life.
2 Corinthians 4:18, “So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
I know we all have lots going on in our lives. We can’t afford to take our eyes off our responsibilities. And we won’t. Fixing our eyes on God primarily is like wearing Google Glass (the glasses with a Google feed). We still see and live in our world, but we do so by looking first to God (the Google feed, if you will). By having God has our first and primary focus we see our lives in the confidence of His sovereignty, adequacy, love, and faithfulness (the roots from “Be the Tree”). By viewing the world through our relationship with God we will have His wisdom, discernment, direction, and strength.
I’ve been feeling kinda numb because I have been looking for fulfillment in the flurry of activity in my crazy life in this season of two-weddings-and-a-baby. Only by living my life through my relationship with God (my God Glasses) will I know the fulfillment, joy, and myriad of blessings He has for me.
Will you join me in wearing our “God Glasses”? I’d love to hear about how this looks in your life.
Brenda Garrison is an author and speaker who empowers women with the confidence to live their calling. Brenda is currently pursuing a Bachelor of Science Degree in Ministry Leadership with a Concentration in Women’s Ministry at Moody Bible Institute. She and her husband, Gene, are the parents of three young adult daughters and live near Metamora, IL.